born2flym07

so i went to that girls xmas party for her work and just found out i got kicked out of it lol. but the worst thing is i guess her boss said he found pills on me and thought i put them in my dates drink...what the fuck!? im super confused because for one..i dont do pills. second, how do i not remember anything? third, i would NEVER let anyone search me for anything. fourth, i would never fucking drug a girl. i cant be drinking like thisssssssss to where i cant even remember what happened to defend myself. what if someone drugged me? or put drugs on me? im so fucking confused. i have to calm down. in good news though. i had a 78 in my financial accounting class and i got a 68 on the final but somehow finished the class with an 80! i went to my wine final hungover and didnt even study cuz i left my book in lakeland like a dumbass. felt like shit taking it and just bullshitted the whole thing. definitely failed it but i emailed him and told him i was sick and he sent me a retake online! so of course i did wayyyy better.

i immediately regret hooking up with a girl this weekend. i cant believe i would do that. im not that type of guy. i just met her that day too. i feel disgusted kind of. ive been drinking too much and that's kinda scary. ive been dealing with pretty bad anxiety for the past couple months and i hate to give in and get on medication but i think im going to have to. im just not that type of guy. i need to be in a relationship before i do more then kiss a girl, that is just me. i dont know how people do it really. i think ill be in a relationship soon though, just i have no clue with who yet, i just feel like is coming.